and hear about some real incredible things.  So many mind numbing thoughts, so many funny experiences, so much pain, so much advice, so many stories of being at the bottom of the barrel.  I could make you all completely aware of the monster that I am or make you completely aware that I would love you better than anyone.  Decisions are such heavy burdens to bear.  I’d dress you up in pretty words and tear your head apart with them.  Life is only what you make it, and I can make it good and bad, horrible and beautiful.  It’s because I have been completely terrible and hopefully completely incredible that I could make or break anything.  If only I had the will to make them incredible again.